My first memory of anxiety was the classic grocery store experience, around 5 years old, where you think you’re standing next to your mom and then you realize she’s no where to be seen.
As life progressed other things caused the panic attacks : any sort of presentation for school, giving a maid of honor speech, a friend drinking alcohol and then demanding they drive because it was their car, the thought of anyone close to me dying, getting pulled over, seeing an acquaintance and having to ‘small talk’ with them, lying, covering up lies with more lies, the thought of ‘messing my kids up’ or failing them, my girls throwing tantrums in public, a memory of something fearful, flying in airplanes, reading about all of the horrible and terrible things going on in this world, writing about what makes me anxious, and the list goes on and on – kind of like this run on sentence!
The crazy part about my anxiety was I didn’t realize I had it until a family member was medically diagnosed. I thought that was just life. She described some symptoms and I thought, “well shoot, that sounds like a lot of my symptoms. Maybe I should research it more.” So I had this ‘aha’ moment at the age of 27 that all those aforementioned experiences were connected to anxiety.
I read books, blogs, articles, and anything I could get my eyes on to figure out how to conquer this demon. I talked with my doctor whose only offer was medication. I talked with my counselor, and honestly made the most breakthroughs and leaps forward in healing using tools she gave me.
Unfortunately, after two years of actively utilizing tips and tricks, I haven’t reached what I call fully cured status.
Which brings us to today. Today I sat down to read my 10cent thrift store book entitled Anxiety & Panic Attacks : Their Cause and Cure by Robert Handly (with Pauline Neff). Described in his book is a holistic approach to recovery (without medication).
Below I’ll share my notes on the book in hopes you and I both find our cure. Continue reading